Small Version

The title speaks for itself. What I'm going to share with you guys is something important about me. Yaay!

I want you to meet the small version of mine. She's Raylyn Grace Marquez. A six year old child who's been my one and only BEBE. I call her like that because she's the baby of the family. ( OOpps, not by blood, just by heart,hehe.) She's my ultimate playmate. My "alaga" for almost a year. Her parents are working the whole day so she's staying in our house. I go with her in school, wait for her and then go home. Yeah, I know what you're thinkng, I'm like her mother. I don't know but there's really something about us na tipong you can't keep us apart.



Before sleeping, we always have picture taking or question and answer portion. Toddlers ask a lot of question. Urgh!
( She can't sleep without me beside her,adik!)

 



Every afternoon, we played and tambay in front of the house.

I chose the dress she will wear. I preapare the food she'll going to eat. I make sure her school bag and assignment are complete and all done. I am her tutor before exams. I go with her in school. We watch the same shows. Sing the same song and dance like we own the floor. We sleep together every noon. I brought her with my friends. Awww! I'm such a stage mom. Mom???Haha. Assuming much.



If I go out with my firends, she'll always with us.



We always kiss in the lips, even in public,haha.

Siya ang pinakamakulit, pinkamadaldal, pinakamadaming tanong, pinakamadaming kumain na batang nakilala ko. When we fight, World War II, iyakan at walang pansinan. But after sometime, lumalambot na agad puso ko so hugs and kisses na,hehe. Just by thinking of those moment made me laugh. Happy lang.


On our way to school...



If you tell her emo, she knows. Cooperative sa mga picture taking,hehe.



I miss her a lot...:(

I've been here in Saudi for almost a year, and if there's one thing that made me want to come home, it's her. Homesickness strikes me everytime I saw a picture of her. When we talked on the phone, she always says,  " Te Cye, uwi ka na, miss na kita. " Aaaw. My heart melt and all I want was to go home, even for a day. Gosh!

I'm just thinking, I love this child that much, how much more if anak ko na talaga. Ganito siguro yung feeling. No, near like this. Hehe. Right mga mommy??

I know she not a BEBE anymore when I come home. But as promise, I'll still give her all she want. Things that she was asking me before but I can't afford. ( Actually, only child siya at spoiled, dadagdag pa ako,,hehe.) Ganun yata talaga.

That's it. If you know CYE, it's always with BEBE/ Len-Len/ Mahal/ Raylyn. I miss my family and friends. I miss the Philippines. And I miss her.

God Bless Us all. Live life to the fullest.

Eid Mubarak Saudi Arabia...(^_^)

Current Playlist

I am still in heaven because of the support and love I received from my last post. I am very thankful. My pageviews suddenly became high. Yeah! It touches me that even strangers sent personal messages. Isn't so sweet?? How can I complain if God had sent such wonderful creatures here on earth.Haay.Thank you guys..

So now I don't know what to write so that I can keep you here. ( naibang level kasi yata yung BILOG ANG MUNDO,hahaha.)

Anywhoo, I love MUSIC. It is my favorite companion in whatever mood I have. It's like you will suddenly feel living in another world with no worries at all. And that's what we like most of the time, right? Don't deny it.

So, here I am again, sharing to you my favorite songs as of the moment. ( As if it matters. Sorry.haha.) Listening to a song over and over and never get tired of it.

TOP 5 : Give Me Everything

Top 4 : Sexy Chick

Top 3: Best Thing I Never Had

Top 2 : The Man Who Can't Be Moved

Top 1 : Steep

The first two songs will make you dance. I'm a sucker of that kind of songs. Happy lang! And the last three was kinda emo.Forgive me. My heart wants that, what can I do??haha. My mind is helpless most of the time.Yikes!

You know what I realized??Pain makes people change.Things will get worse before they get better. But when they do, remember who put you down and who helped you up. Pak!

So keep your head high, keep your chin up and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about.

God Bless you all guys. (^_^)

Bilog ang Mundo

Paano nga ba uumpisahan ang bagay na hindi mo naman talaga alam kung paano simulan? Mga bagay na akala mo alam mo. Akala mo sa iyo na.Yung tipong hawak mo na,dumulas pa sa mga kamay mo. Akala mo magtatagal. Akala mo pang-habang buhay. Tama nga yung kasabihan, madaming namamatay sa AKALA. At muntikan na ako dun ah.

 Ipinangako ko sa sarili ko na di na ako magsusulat dito tungkol sa nangyari sakin. Dahil ayoko na magpakalugmok. Tapos na yung malulungkot na araw. Napagod nadin naman ako sa pagluha. Dadating kadin pala talaga sa punto na wala na,ubos ka na.Wala ka ng kayang ibigay o isakripisyo pa.Yung tipong gusto mo naman masaya, ngumiti at mabuhay ulit.

Kahapon nakausap ko ang isa sa pinakamatalik kong kaibigang lalaki. Doon napag-usapan namin ang mga nangyari.Isang parte kasi ng buhay niya, nagawa niya din yung ginawa sa kin. Ipinaliwanag niya lahat.Hindi niya pinagmalaki ang nagawa niya. Hindi din siya masayang nakapanakit siya.Pero ganun yata talaga, ang buhay ay umiikot sa tinatawag nating pagbabago. Lahat nag-iiba. Kahapon ganito siya, bukas iba na. Kahapon sayo siya, kinabukasan makikita mo na lang  nasa iba na. Magigisng ka na lang isang araw na ikaw na lang pala ang naiwan sa kahapon. Ang iba na dati katabi at kahawak mo pa ang kamay, nauna na pala.

Masakit. Nakakapanglumo. Hindi mo maipaliwanag ang nararamdaman mo. Nakakapanghina. Parang sasabog ka. Pero ano nga ba ang magagawa mo? Ayan na, inihain na lang sayo. Ni hindi mo nakita kung paano niluto? Sino-sino ang nagluto? Wala kang pwedeng ibang gawin kundi kainin na lang at lunukin. Kahit sobrang sakit. Kahit di mo kaya. Parang ganun yun.

Iniisip ko nga hanggang ngayon, pano nila nagagawa yun? Paano natitiis ng konsyensya nila yun. Paano sila nakakatulog sa gabi? Paano pa nakakain ng maayos habang alam nilang may nasaktan sila. Hindi ko maintindihan. Kahit anong gawin ko. Kahit pagbalibaliktarin ko man ang mundo. Pero sabi niya, sa una lang yan sila masya kasi kumbaga nasa " CLoud 9" pa. Pero kapag naglaon na dun na nila malalasahan yung pait. Yung pagkakaiba. Yung tanong na," Ano ba tong nagawa ko?" .At dun na dadating si pag-sisisi.

Habang kausap ko siya, umiiyak ako. Kasi naintindihan ko yung mga posibilidad na dahilan kung bakit yun nangyari sakin. Namulat yung isang parte ng buhay ko. Nakita ko na mas maganda padin pa lang ikaw na lang yung nasaktan at iniwan. Kasi bandang huli, ikaw padin talaga yung parang nanalo. Ang galing talaga ni Papa Jesus. Planado ang lahat base sa tunay na ikakasaya at ikakabuti mo. Inalis niya yung mga pampagulo lang at ibibigay yung nakalaan talaga para sayo. Yung taong sakto sa gusto at kailangan mo talaga. Taong ginawa Niya para lang sayo.

Alam ko nag-mukha na naman akong bitter sa post ko na ito. Pero gusto ko lang ilabas ito. Parang sasabog kasi ang puso ko sa dami ng nararamdaman. Alam ko makikinig naman kayo. Salamat.

Sabi nila mas maganda ng nagmahal ka at nasaktan kumpara sa di ka nagmahal at minahal at all. Dahil kasi sa SAKIT na yan, diyan ka LALAKAS at matututong LUMABAN ulit. Nakakadagdag sa pagkatao. Nakaka-proud na isang parte ng buhay mo, nakaya mong tumayo ulit pagkatapos ng bagyong akala mo di mo kaya lagpasan.

Sa ngayon ayos naman na ako. Masarap mabuhay, sino ba naman ako para magreklamo. Kapag may umaalis, may dadating na mas tama para sayo. Maghihintay na lang ako. Kahit gaano katagal. Dahil alam ko bandang huli, ibibigay din Niya si Mr. Right.

Pagpasyensyahan niyo na ang drama kong ito. Alam ko naiintindihan niyo ko. Ilan sa inyo'y pinagdaanan din ito.

Mula sa aking puso...SALAMAT.

Sa lahat ng nasasaktan at umiiyak ngayon, magpakatatag ka kaibigan, dahil lage mong tatandaan BILOG ANG MUNDO..(^_^)

Another Wishful Thinking

Today I've been procrastinating at almost colossal levels. I've really done nothing but nap. My sleeping pattern was totally messed up. But honestly, I actually love it. Working while the world is sleeping and hit the sack when everybody's busy already. Exactly opposite, right??Haha. Sad it will only last for  this month of Ramadan.

Anyway, I will tell you one of my wildest dream ever. Something I really wanted to learn ever since. Do you have a hint??Okay! I really wanted to play piano. Oh please, don't laugh. It's a serious matter so even if it don't suit me, still I want to get the knack of. I do envy those who can play.

 

Since, I know it's not easy, I just want to learn one piece of music. It is Johann Pachelbel's Canon. It touches my soul and sends shivers down my spine. And it always does, even though I have listened to it thousands of times.Here it is, listen guys.

I have two reasons why. First, beacause of this scene in the Korean Movie My Sassy Girl. Have you watch it already?? This is my favorite movie ever. It always have a different impact on me, no matter how many times I already watch it. One day, the girl called him and tells him to bring her a rose during class to celebrate their 100th-day anniversary. The scene was so touching, where he arrives in disguise into a packed auditorium and watches her play the melody of Pachelbel's Canon on a paino onstage.

 

And another reason, it's the wedding song of Edward and Bella. I assume you know them, who else who doesn't.It is played by Rosalie on the piano for Bella and Alice as they walk down the stairs.

I dream of playing this on the day of my wedding or the song while walking down the aisle. Isn't it so romantic? It's like you're the only girl in the world. You own the universe for a while. Okay, enough for my day-dreaming. I need to find my prince first,haha.

I, again, want to send my heart-warming thank you for reading this blog. Knowing someone who actually knows this just gave me tons of happiness. I really do love to write and this is my sanctuary. I felt safe and real here. Thank you.

Live beautifully. Dream passionately. Love completely.

God Bless You all..(^_^)

Splurge!

I can't remember when was the last time I made a post. I also didn't know why it took me a long time blogging again. Okay, I'll admit I'm too lazy lately. All day I'm just sleeping. I'm such a bum. Sorry!

So here it goes, last Friday, to break our usual routine everyday, we went to shop. Yoohoo! It's like a treat for ourselves again. Another day to enjoy and be happy that somehow I am able to buy what I need. No wants. Lol.

We arrived at around 7:30. Since it's Ramadan this month, the mall opened at exactly 9 pm, right after their prayer. See, we waited for almost 2 hours. Yaay! But it was fun, instead of complaining we grabbed some yummy ice cream and that's it. Just like a kid.



Spell W-A-I-T-I-N-G ...haha.




Love it. See everybody's busy with our own IC.Yum!




Baskin Robbins is our fave ice cream parlor. Whenever we see one, we really can't say NO! Forget the diet and nevermind the RBS (Random Blood Sugar). haha.



After the luscious ice cream, we proceed to our fave store, H&M. Unfortunately, that day they have less sales. I don't know why. Us usual, I bought some accesories and that's it. Clothes, shoes and bags are quite expensive.

Next stop?? Aldo Accessories. Upon seeing them, you will literally fell in love with it. If only you have a lot of money, of course.Haha. In my dreams!

After the very tiring window shopping, we lost our energy and decided to eat, AGAIN. I grabbed a coffee and pasta. On the same store in which we bought the pasta, the Filipino manager gave us some treat. So kind of him. Thank you! So coffee plus soda = overflowing caffeine in my body.

Before I'll say goodbye, here's my outfit post. I took the photo inside the  flat because us usual we need to wear Abaya. I know, it's very frustrating at times. Sad face.

Thank you for reading it until here. Thank you for keeping in touch with this simple diary of mine. Happiness was really a choice. It is so different here in Saudi Arabia. So it depends on you on how you spend it at your best. Just like me, ( Oops, I'm not a good example,honestly.) though it was hard and you felt alone sometimes, you really have to fight and be strong. Just think of your inspirations and strength back home.

Enough for me being so melodramatic. Hope all are safe and happy.

God Bless You All..(^_^)

Reality Bites

 I read this on tumblr last week and it quite stayed in my mind so here I am sharing it with you guys. Just a reality of things that we must realize. MUST. Gosh!

Guys Must Read This

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one... She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure...

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see...

Boy: Oh... Well... She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well-being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see...

Boy: But... Ugh... Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see...

Boy: I... Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see...

Boy: Well, she...

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart... Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

Got to go. It's the Holy month of Ramadan here in Saudi Arabia. Our work  was moved a little late and I must start preparing cause if not I'm dead.Lol.

Anyway, thank you for reading.

God Bless you guys...